This sem is more disaster

assalamualaikum!

hahaha tajuk tu acah-acah english, tapi aku rasa kali ni aku nak tulis in english.

okay..

what i meant by the title of my story today is actually it is about my housemate.

hahaha my english is bad :P

hmm.. i just want to tell how i'm feeling right now

it is just because she don't talk to much to me but with her 'bff' she is so friendly like hell...

before she know her 'bff' she got to know me first actually..

we have been a roomate since sem 1 but when her 'bff' come in to be our housemate in uitm raub sem 2, she just go to her 'bff' and left me..

that make me feel i'm a dumb

why? why i feel like that?

because both of them got in dean list together since sem 1 and i never been in the dean list..

i also feel that she do not want to talk to me much because i so straight forward when talking and it will hurt somebody heart..

what i want to say is, my friend in my high school is just like that too..

it just like a normal attitude in my school..

maybe it is because we are staying in hostel..

no secret and what ever..

but with my roomate i feel different..

i dont know why..

it just like they just dont want to talk to me because they afraid i would reveal they secret.

that how i feel..

and also feel that my roomate is like a 'talam dua muka'

why?

because recently when we go to her 'bff' house in eid month

she very angry because of her 'bff' make all 5 of us not able to go to our campus in time..

because of her kurma and we just got to the pekeliling late and the bus that we will ride is just go after we got there.

but after the incident i feel that my roomate tell everything that i had said when i'm angry to her 'bff'

she doesnt realise that she is angry too that time.. but what she do is tell about my bad to her 'bff'..

i feel so sad because i got to know her. i wish i could not to know her since sem 1. really.

if you read this dear, you know what, i really really sad to know you.

assalamualaikum.